Happy Valentines Day! (This Is Me Desperately Trying To Convince Myself That I'm Over You)

Time moves forward, and years have past
Since words have been unspoken and gazes uncast
We went on our own different ways
And our connection was gone without a trace
So I tried to seek another face
But it was only yours that I saw
Only your voice that I heard
Only you in my thoughts
Only you, so I suffered
Longing for you every dreamy day
And loathing you every sleepless night
In my daydreams you'll never know
My hundred plans, devised to get you back
Or the other hundred meant to get even,
Meant to get back
Sometimes I really do wonder
If your hurting inside too
But that's a quite difficult a ponder
Because you seem like a rock
Firm, cold, numb
So I haven't a slightest clue,
To whether or not I hurt you

Time for apologies have come and gone
And more than two years have past
But our silence has yet to be undone
Well, at least I stopped needing you
At long last!
Time may have failed to heal your wounds
But please know
Though I may be free,
And though my heart now beats for me
I still love thee
Though no longer in a romantic way
But love still,
That'll forever stay
And that will never change
'Til I die of old age
So tonight, I'm wishing you were here
So I could hold you close
And hold you dear
As I greet you
Happy Valentine's Day!

- February 14, 2011 -


*** If ever you are reading this, Janelle, note that I only stopped depressing over you December 2014. You still cross my mind everyday. Though your memory no longer brings me pain. Actually now, when I remember those times we spent together when we were still friends, it paints a smile on my face, and it lightens up my heart. Maybe this is really how "moved on" is like. I'm not really sure. What I do know is you hold a very special place in my heart. And though we are not together, and may never be together, I will ALWAYS love you. - (and I say that in the key of Whitney Houston ^_<). Naniniwala na ako sa forever. Hahahahahahaha =')  ^_^) ***


If you have truly loved someone, moving on doesn't mean you have stopped loving the person. First love never dies. True love never dies. Janelle was my first true love.